Non-day

Yesterday was a non-day.

I made the fire, collected logs, fed the goats, fed and then cleaned out the rabbits.

I updated my the blog, watched a lot of TV and chatted to a few friends.

I did manage to eat a fried egg with some bread in the afternoon, a few grapes and then peas and Quorn "Beef Steak" or Fake as I call it for dinner.  I wasn't hungry and thankfully I didn't feel too nauseous, I just needed to eat as I hadn't had anything since Sunday afternoon.

I worked up the energy to have a shower and shave this morning; all too easily I had fallen back into my slump of not bothering.

I'm looking forward to having a chat with Kris today and hopefully Adam tonight.  I'm trying to focus on small close things like this because everything else is just nebulous if there at all.  If I start thinking about anything more than a day ahead I keep running through all sorts of scenarios, good and bad, which just increases my anxiety.  I don't trust my judgement any more.