Betrayal

I missed posting yesterday because I had a crisis.

I have been going through a rough patch with my wife of ten years; she wanted to end our marriage and I was fighting to save it.  I had suspicions that there was somebody else involved but she has denied this to me and her friends.  Trying one more time to get her to be open with me and hoping that this was a stupid mistake in the heat of things she again denied anything was going on.  I even told her who I suspected of her having an affair with, and again she denied it.  Only when I confronted her with an email that she had sent to him did she admit the reason she didn't love me was because she loved him.  You can only imagine how I felt.

This person who I love and have been with for fifteen years decided our relationship wasn't worth fighting for and that she would rather be with somebody else than me.  She has lied to me, lied to her friends and quite possible her family.  I don't trust her or believe anything she says anymore; how long has be lying to me and how many things has she lied to me about?  She wants to be friends with me; how on earth would that be possible?  Do you betray friends?  Do you lie to friends?  How to you treat anybody like this?

I trusted her implicitly even though I was jealous of her spending time with other people, but stopping somebody you love from from expressing themselves is not the way to a good relationship, at least that was what I thought.  If I can't trust her then how can I trust anybody else?  Everything I thought I knew is wrong.

I know Helen has been through a rough time but we were both at a low ebb last year.  I was hoping that this was a one off weakness and that we could work together and I could bring myself to forgive her.  It hurts that she cares so little about me and our relationship and now I hate and love her at the same time.

My friends and family have been been very supportive and I don't think I could have coped without them.  My friends in the village looked after me yesterday, my Mum is coming to stay with me for a few days and my Daughter was ready to jump on the very next train from North Wales to be with me.

I contacted the creep's ex-girlfriend to see whether she knew what had been happening, it turned out she didn't know but she as we spoke all the pieces of the jigsaw dropped into place.  It seems that she went through a mirror of the experience I had in that she tried to save their relationship six months ago, he didn't want to try and it finally came to and end early this year.